Treats! Magazine Issue Thirteen | Page 50

You haven’t always been an artist. In fact, you studied World Religions at college. When did you discover painting? I was around age eight and I remember going to the Museum of Fine Art in Boston and seeing a painting called The Martyrdom of St. Hippolytus. The painting has Hippolytus’s body spread, tortured and stretched across three panels. It was like it just kept going. It was the first painting that I had ever seen that made me feel a deep sense of horror and fear, as well as wonder and awe. Your recent exhibition in LA is filled with large portraits called ‘Guardians’ that have been described as ‘part-human, part- animal, part-deity’. The Guardians hold an ambiguous power that could be fear, horror or love. Yes, I like to leave them open ended. I want them to have multiple identities and purposes: they can hold pain or joy, wisdom or protection while at the same time offering viewers the space to remember their own struggle. These portraits are formed of asymmetrical clusters of heavily outlined geometric shapes. Each one is distinctive, with its own different character. Yes, I often feel like their personalities reflect my emotional state at the time of painting, whether I’m feeling filled with anger, anxiety, peace or comfort. These emotions are revealed in the works through their shape, their edges, their colors. Though, in your titles, you didn’t give each Guardian a specific name to identify them. No, I simply gave each painting the title ‘Guardian’ followed by a roman numeral (I–XIII). If I had been more specific it would have taken away [from] the viewer’s ability to identify with them and make their own emotional associations and connections. For me, the Guardians offer counsel and guidance. They’re like religious protectors but they’re not specific to one worldview. Do you always work on a large scale? Up until now my work has been mostly large scale. When developing Guardians, I knew that in order for my viewer to feel the power, protection, and ideology behind the work I needed to go big. I have always felt captivated by standing in front of an image that overpowers you, almost Godlike. How else do you communicate this power? Color for me has always triggered a lot of emotions so 44 treatsmagazine.com before I begin painting, I spend a lot of time developing my color palette. The colours within and behind each Guardian become their armour, their story, their triumph. I also feel that the shading of each piece amplifies their intensity and energy. How do you build up this shading? Tell me about your process. I use cheap brushes to create the texture in my background. I rip up tee shirts and use rags to smooth my oil shading. It’s a sort of dance through constant motion: wiping, smearing, brushing, etc. Do you think that because you’re a self-taught artist you can take certain liberties with how you approach your work? Maybe. As a self-taught artist I think there are certain liberties I can take that academically trained artists might not feel able to do. I don’t have the clutter of set rules, processes and techniques. I simply get to experiment until I find what works for me. Perhaps this process would be simpler if I had the knowledge that classically trained painters have but it might also take away the sense of discovery I feel when I stumble upon a new way of doing things through trial and error. It’s a bit like Alice in Wonderland, falling down the rabbit hole, not knowing what may come next. I like that feeling. What do you do if a painting isn’t working? Lots of artists destroy their work... No, when I feel a painting isn’t working, I never throw it out. Instead I paint over it and over it, until it is layered, like scars. The texture of the paper becomes thick and gritty. You can see the traces of what was and you can see where I was once going. It feels like your recent exhibition in LA with Coates and Scarry has been a turning point for you? How do you see your work developing? I’ve always been fascinated by interior design and architecture and want to explore using the physical space of the gallery more. I’m also gearing up for a show in London in May, which will have a different feel. I first imagined the Guardians as metaphorical protectors or angels. Now that they are out in the world, I feel able to create freely without the darker tone of the works taking on negative power. I feel like I can start to reveal the light at the end of the tunnel.